Give them hope

You know what? I’m not a defeatist…I can finish the post. I had a momentary lapse and let myself slip into awful sadness and self-loathing but it was brief. I’m not saying this won’t hurt tomorrow and for the months to come but I will say that I won’t question my own self worth. I know I’m worth something and I know that there is someone out there who will love and appreciate me and that same someone will drive me crazy and excite me and surprise me and educate me. I deserve it in every respect…no matter how hard you fall and however many bones you break, you need to pick yourself up and keep moving…if we don’t have that, what do we have? I don’t know what I’m moving forward for or why, I just know that’s what I need to do and that hope for something better, always exists. Give me hope and I will strive, however blindly.

I realize this post is ridiculously, foolishly philosophical and kitsch but give me that; at the very least, allow me compassion.